THE GREAT DECEIVER

Live your life in complete obeyance of the "good Lord."
Far too many contradictions plague your praised book - written by man.
And so many of the close to you have fallen victim
Rampant disease, massive hardships fall upon them with no warrant.
So you it was meant to happen.  It's all in his plan.
How can you sit back and watch your loved ones in so much pain?
Every night before you lie to bed, pray in his name.
While your family lie in metal frames awaiting death.
Why do so many try to find some afterlife?
Faith bestowed in a false sanctuary.
Have some faith in one's self.
God is dead.
Another life, it has been taken by your good lord.
Heavens come crashing down around you.
where's your faith now?
Time to realize that there's more to life while you're still here.
Take some time to think before you pass your judgement on fellow man.
So caught up in all that you've been fed all of your years.
When the time comes, I too will be faced with a choice.
Looking at the way you've lived your life all of your years
Bigoted and ignorant
I'd rather burn in eternal hell.

BRIDGES BURNED

Surrounding flames they seer your flesh
As you stand upon this burning bridge.
Cold hearts cannot put out these flames.
Everything I thought we had
Ripped right from a nurturing womb
Negate feelings espoused by my heart.
Watch your hand reach out to no one.
Look back in regret of our time.
Friendships end and friendships burn like this.
Bridges burn.
Spread the ashes over a sea of hate.
Empty life for an empty soul like yours.
Cryptic writings soaked in life's blood.
Satiate your yearning for my pain.
Trust is a blind death.
Loneliness deserving of you.
Live the hell you put me through.
Reject these cries.
View through skewed eyes.
Bludgeoning a meaningless life.
Shrouded in a veil of black.
Solace eludes.  Ill will consumes.

SILENCING DISHEARTENING THOUGHTS

(your) Denial raped my heart
As I looked for acceptance from you.
Did you hear my heartbled cries?
Did you see the suffering in my eyes
As my hand, my hand reached out for you?
Can I see this through?
Blackened hearts disgorge red blood too.
The wind that now falls beneath me resurrects your hollow frame.
Displace this now calloused heart.
Realize we're not, not the same.
This pain rings out for vigilance.
Your words will not be, be my end.
As I take a look to the cloud filled sky
My blood pours down with no reason why.
Sharp, cold steel breaks my skin.
Time to kill this pain inside.
Bleed me of my soul.
Bleed me of myself.
Please fill this void.

REJECTION BREEDS OBSESSION

Left alone, buried in vision of you.
Your rejection breeds obsession.
Breed.
You picked my petals clean.
Forced me down a hole.
Self concious thoughts plague my days.
Twisted mirrors reflect this face.
Shattered reflection.
Left with burning questions.
Just another burning victim.
No longer the me you perceived.
I have but one option for recourse.
Eliminate you from my life.
Left one day to recount this personal war.
Shades of crimson flow from you.
Dreams of your eyes haunt me still.
I bled this warm heart for you.
There's nothing more I can do.
Breed.
Obsessed with your demise.
Bury you in the past.
Repress memories of you like the rest.

SIPHONING AN EMPTY TANK

You, you're not invited.
This gathering has just room for three.
This hot drawn bath, my razorblade and me.
Do I move on from this juncture?
Or wallow in my own remorse?
My own worst fears presented to me.  
What's left is a gaping hole in my heart.
Lead me down the path of destruction.
Your illicit acts for me to drown.
Shed what's left of this worn out skin.
You're nothing more than a cancer in my life.
Fuck your vision of what I am in your eyes.
Worn down, worn out.  You wasted my time.
Fuck you.  You're no longer anything to me.

TAKING THE SUMMER OFF

Burn these words deep.
You can only feign sincerity for so long.
Ten thousand words can't change what you already said.
Deny the cost.  Accept the loss.
Be prepared to pay the price.
Now you I ostracize.
What made you think we'd never catch on to the true you?
Dilute the mark I have scarred.
Blind acceptance does not flow freely
Six months of feigned sincerity counts for nothing.
What I've held for so long, cheapened for social climb.
Dragged down for not the first time.
And when you attempt to return
You can look me dead in the eyes
Searching for acceptance.
These eyes afire.
You can know, know for sure
This back is turned.
Ten thousand words can't change what you already said.
Be prepared to pay the price.
Now you I ostracize.
You can forget ever coming back.